Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in.
Make believin' is hard alone,
Out here on my own

We're always provin' who we are
Always reachin' for the risin' star
To guide me far
And shine me home
Out here on my own

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Until the morning sun appears
Making light of all my fears
I dry the tears
I've never shown
Out here on my own

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in
I may not win
But I can't be thrown
Out here on my own
On my own

I'm itching all over ! I thought it was mosquito bites, but mummy dadddy say its not ! It's just rashes =( but so itchy !! Anyway, applied medicine already. If worsen, I'll just go to the doctor, cause the itchy is unbearable !! =(

OMG! Assignments are piling up !! So many sketches to do.. so many research and development !! Think Think Think !! Draw Draw Draw !! Everyday also got new things to do Zzzz BUT IM HAPPY doing them.. :D:D It keeps me going. They say "It's okay to slow down as long as you don't stop" so.. YEA !! =))

I don't like waking up early -.- (like.. who likes???) I'm just so lazy =p

OFF TO SCHOOL !!! HUGS

I dreamt that he's back !!!!!! )= I dreamt that my Butter is back !! I miss him so much... *sigh* He has a new famliy now. I know he's well taken care of by this new family *because the new family is my friend la* =) Thanks Eric and family for taking good care of Butter. Hope everything is well for you guys =)

I just realised I'm so replaceable. I mean I know I am a long time ago la.. but its so heartbreaking to know that now... the fact is .. I've been replaced.. and the stupidest thing is.. I know it's going to happen.. AND I LET IT HAPPEN !! I don't know why too.. when I know its going to happen.. its like.. i feel useless.. nth i can do.. and I'm at that point where by I'm so tired of everything and I just don't want to care anymore. It's even more heartbreaking to know that my actions are been taken as a changed in person and bad attitude.. I mean.. I have been with these ppl for a period of time which made us go through thick and thin.. share tears and laughters together.. and yet they doesn't understand or rather.. they nv try to understand why am i behaving like that.. so.. I'm so replaceable...... I AM REPLACEABLE !!!!!!

when my world came tumbling down, you came around and shine a touch of light for me, telling me not to be afraid bcuz you'll always be around with wide open arms. you told me that's the least you can do bcuz you love me. you told me you wouldn't want to see me sad and struggling. you told me as long as im happy, you're happy too. you advise me what you think is best for me, and you'll never force me to accept it. with open ears you listened to my complains all the time and all you do is just smile. when im sick and feeling cold, you went out to buy me panadol even if its past 12midnight. you worry and try all means to make me eat when i have no appetite. you give me no reason to turn you down, and everytime i have to turn you down on something, i'll feel so bad. and the feeling gets worst when i know you are troubled and as usual, i'll feel so useless bcuz i cant help much. i used to say it when i was young.. but as i grow old.. i stop saying it..

mummy, i love you..

有时候太坚强 笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏 歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处 OH~
你不要追问我 还缺了些什麽

每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站 OH~
我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站 OH~

我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

not enough time.....not enough time !!!!!!

school has been..... better =) everything is getting more !!.. friends are getting more... the words we shared are getting more.... homeworks are getting more !!! it's tough for those who have to handle work and school at the same time.. like me.... boohoo !!!! especially when your work takes up so much time.. you hardly have time to do your homework.. and you have to stay up late at night to finish it.. and you may not even realised that its already 5am in the morning.. and you have to wake up in about 1 or 2 hours time.. AAAHhhh... its tough.. but i'll still hang on :D:D:D bcuz i believe that this horrible period will pass.. or rather.. be better !!! =)

my dad is well !! doctor says he's fine.. but have to rest for like 1 or 2 months for the internal wounds to fully recover. and he has stop smoking =) totally stop. i'm so happy and proud of him !! he has been smoking since he's 11 years old (about 40 over years now). and he just stop like that !! i'm very sure he feels terrible at times (thats why he is always finding for food to munch) haha which is good.. bcuz he needs all the nutrients =))

im a very kiasu person.. i shall not deny.. always wanting to aim for the best out of the best in everything every area.. giving myself unnecessary stress and pressure..
in my previous entry.. i mentioned that i felt like a piece of shyt bcuz everyone around me is like super talented.. and i look at myself in the mirror.. who am i.. wad am i made of.. wad's within me.. what am i looking for.. what do i wanna achieve.. so many questions.. so demoralized.. i still feel the same.. as in now.. still feel like shyt all the time.. i always think that i know nothing.. a very useless person.. am always not as good as others.. one day.. i was having lesson.. and lecturer asked us to draw something.. be creative and design something and explain.. i actually panicked.. i dunno wad to draw.. my mind went blank.. i look around.. everybody on the track already.. some talking disturbing each other.. some working hard on their piece of paper.. and me... looking around feeling so sian.. then it suddenly hit me.. why are these ppl so relax.. why am i thinking so much... why am i always giving myself the unnecessary stress and pressure.. why cant i just relax and stop thinking so much and just do it !! then i tell myself... this is where my confident must come in... there is no right or wrong.. others may think my work is not fantastic.. but i am and i can be confident to say that "no! i think my work is fantastic!" ..like wise.. i may think that their work isnt good.. but they think its superb! so whats there to be afraid of.. confidence confidence... your holiday is up.. its time to come back... this apply in everything in our life... whether its school, work, friends and family.. i think its all the same... dont have to think so much.. just do it and keep on moving.. bcuz time waits for noone.. dont be too hard on yourself !!! loosen up !!!!