Am I a burden to you, sometimes I wonder.

Everytime I came home, I see the shoes layed all over the place outside the door. I hear laughters of the children in the room. I hear the TV on. Lights were dim. The sense of belonging isn't there. And I started to feel like an "extra" coming out from nowhere. You may not feel this way, but I do.

Hiding in the room, watching TV, going online, doing nothing. I enjoyed having my own time for myself. But how long can it last? I need someone to truely warm my heart and make me feel love. I think the problem lies in me, I know.

Being emotional really drift me away. I have no mood to do anything at all. And only you... can make me feel better.. If only you knew..

Leisure World Cruise Competition !!!
Woohoo !!! I got into Semi-Finals !!! TOUGH FIGHT !!!! Gonna be an exciting one !! wahahhahaha I'm ssssoooooooooooo not confident. *sigh* anywaysssss...... ENJOY CAN ALREADY !!!! WOOHOOO!!!!

money money money...... i need money......... its amazing how you can speak right to my heart ~~ without saying a word... you can light up the dark ~~~ !!! wOot !!! I'm so touched cannnnnnn... when you gave it to me.. I was shocked !!! thinking how the hell you know !!!?? well.. guess that's the power of LOVE !!!! Famliy LOVE !!! FAMILY = Father And Mother I LOVE YOU !! WAHahahhahahaha

Oh man.. i miss dance classsesssss.. !!!! I was watching the "wu lin da dao" last night and I feel so high !!! I wanna dance the night away man !!! omgomgomg.. If only I can dance like from day to night EVERYDAY !!! Wahahhahaa crazyy but SERIOUS !! When you look at urself in the mirror, doing so good, oh my.. the sense of achievement is incredible !!!! and telling yourself NO ! YOU CAN DO BETTER STILL !! omg.. can't imagine la.. must try it urself =)

I don't understand why people work so hard and get themselves all tired and sick. No matter how important your current task is, your health must always be at the best state, if not, how are you able to complete your task successfully when you aren't feeling well?
Yes, Im refering to myself too. I'm very prone to colds. So i kinda changed my diet. I had lotsa fruits and vege, and I can really feel the difference. And exercising too, it's very important. But sadly... I've done it all wrong too.... excess excersing and consuming of fruits makes me big..... super sad la... i've totally lost it.. Don't know what im doing.. I just know I wanna slim down !!!! Now that I've know the correct way of doing it.. I'm not going to destroy it again !!!!!

* Cut down carbo intake
* Try to avoid rice and yellow noodles
* Do not consume too much fruits, they have hidden sugar
* Take fruits only before meals, NOT AFTER, it helps in disgestion
* NO food and defintely NO supper after 8pm
* Break meals into 5 small meals, MOST IMPORTANT MEAL IS BREAKFAST
* Do not go running too much, it'll make you muscular
* Avoid 3in1 coffee and milo
* Take in more water and PURE green tea, it helps to detox
* Avoid meat
* Avoid drinking water at night, it'll cause water retention

I hope this time round I'll be satisfy.

Gal, thank you so much... really.. =)

Back at home... I'm all alone again.. I guessed you have never noticed me at all.......
HAve been busy... busy.... real busy......
Rehearsals.... practices... work.... running errands.... everything comes together and went off so fast... I can hardly breathe.... Just like you.....
I know it's impossible.. and I shouldn't do it... but the more i know it wont happen.. the more i fall for it.... Humansss..... complicated creatures...
I think the right thing for me to do is forget abt you... totally... bcuz from the very start... I knew you wont take a 2nd look at me.....