I dreamt that he's back !!!!!! )= I dreamt that my Butter is back !! I miss him so much... *sigh* He has a new famliy now. I know he's well taken care of by this new family *because the new family is my friend la* =) Thanks Eric and family for taking good care of Butter. Hope everything is well for you guys =)

I just realised I'm so replaceable. I mean I know I am a long time ago la.. but its so heartbreaking to know that now... the fact is .. I've been replaced.. and the stupidest thing is.. I know it's going to happen.. AND I LET IT HAPPEN !! I don't know why too.. when I know its going to happen.. its like.. i feel useless.. nth i can do.. and I'm at that point where by I'm so tired of everything and I just don't want to care anymore. It's even more heartbreaking to know that my actions are been taken as a changed in person and bad attitude.. I mean.. I have been with these ppl for a period of time which made us go through thick and thin.. share tears and laughters together.. and yet they doesn't understand or rather.. they nv try to understand why am i behaving like that.. so.. I'm so replaceable...... I AM REPLACEABLE !!!!!!

when my world came tumbling down, you came around and shine a touch of light for me, telling me not to be afraid bcuz you'll always be around with wide open arms. you told me that's the least you can do bcuz you love me. you told me you wouldn't want to see me sad and struggling. you told me as long as im happy, you're happy too. you advise me what you think is best for me, and you'll never force me to accept it. with open ears you listened to my complains all the time and all you do is just smile. when im sick and feeling cold, you went out to buy me panadol even if its past 12midnight. you worry and try all means to make me eat when i have no appetite. you give me no reason to turn you down, and everytime i have to turn you down on something, i'll feel so bad. and the feeling gets worst when i know you are troubled and as usual, i'll feel so useless bcuz i cant help much. i used to say it when i was young.. but as i grow old.. i stop saying it..

mummy, i love you..

有时候太坚强 笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏 歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处 OH~
你不要追问我 还缺了些什麽

每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站 OH~
我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站 OH~

我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

not enough time.....not enough time !!!!!!

school has been..... better =) everything is getting more !!.. friends are getting more... the words we shared are getting more.... homeworks are getting more !!! it's tough for those who have to handle work and school at the same time.. like me.... boohoo !!!! especially when your work takes up so much time.. you hardly have time to do your homework.. and you have to stay up late at night to finish it.. and you may not even realised that its already 5am in the morning.. and you have to wake up in about 1 or 2 hours time.. AAAHhhh... its tough.. but i'll still hang on :D:D:D bcuz i believe that this horrible period will pass.. or rather.. be better !!! =)

my dad is well !! doctor says he's fine.. but have to rest for like 1 or 2 months for the internal wounds to fully recover. and he has stop smoking =) totally stop. i'm so happy and proud of him !! he has been smoking since he's 11 years old (about 40 over years now). and he just stop like that !! i'm very sure he feels terrible at times (thats why he is always finding for food to munch) haha which is good.. bcuz he needs all the nutrients =))